Perversely, it may have been easier for Myr to bear if he'd had a hand in the destruction around them. Intentional or otherwise it would have warranted opprobrium and exile; it would have deserved the treatment he received (he thought he received) in way he understood. For what he had done--
He consents, in his numb and nerveless way, to be led a space away from where he'd been digging; there are ample seats among the upthrust rubble. He has eyes only for the slab he'd been digging futilely at; he doesn't hear Simon's questions at first for the force of his attention. When it does register that he's being spoken to--he stiffens, the fur about his neck and shoulders standing up.
"I--" His eyes go to Simon's face--back to the slab--then to the nearest void in the memory, his pupils widening as he realizes what that means. At what's obvious, to someone who already knew what had happened (that Simon doesn't and can't does not occur to him, not when his logic's snarled up in knots by emotion).
What is it that happened, exactly? The memory of that is too close at hand for proper distance and it sits on his chest like a sudden weight. He tries to draw a breath but it is juddering, jagged, does nothing to calm. "--I can't--I d, don't, I don't want to remember that," but there's hardly any helping it when everything conspires to remind him.
He takes an unsteady step back, away from the paladin, like he'd run--if he weren't trembling so to make it nearly impossible.
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He consents, in his numb and nerveless way, to be led a space away from where he'd been digging; there are ample seats among the upthrust rubble. He has eyes only for the slab he'd been digging futilely at; he doesn't hear Simon's questions at first for the force of his attention. When it does register that he's being spoken to--he stiffens, the fur about his neck and shoulders standing up.
"I--" His eyes go to Simon's face--back to the slab--then to the nearest void in the memory, his pupils widening as he realizes what that means. At what's obvious, to someone who already knew what had happened (that Simon doesn't and can't does not occur to him, not when his logic's snarled up in knots by emotion).
What is it that happened, exactly? The memory of that is too close at hand for proper distance and it sits on his chest like a sudden weight. He tries to draw a breath but it is juddering, jagged, does nothing to calm. "--I can't--I d, don't, I don't want to remember that," but there's hardly any helping it when everything conspires to remind him.
He takes an unsteady step back, away from the paladin, like he'd run--if he weren't trembling so to make it nearly impossible.